I often wonder that we have the most amazing ability of expression, of letting people around us know how we feel about them, how we value their presence. Do we always realize that or does time slip out of our hands and it remains unexpressed love, unshared pain, untold story and the person may move out of our lives forever then we carry around this regret without even realizing it. I've Always wondered why do we carry so many baggage's when don't we let go of them. When we were kids how prolonged were our fights, it hardly lasted but as adults we have a huge barrier factors like inability to forgive, inability to express our hurt through words, cold wars its a long list. Why does it take a life time for us to realize that love unexpressed is equal not loving at all. Would like to take you through a story.
Jimmy came back home and was happy to see his dad home early after long. He peeped into his room to see him engrossed in conversation and his work. He walked out went out to play. He saw others fathers playing with their sons and had a tear in his eyes most often. The period of adolescents is confusing and so he began thinking about the happening of his life. His mother passed away when he was two his grandmother passed away a couple of years back and his dad loved him he knew that cause he was in the best of schools provided with everything that he needed. He remembered the last camp he had with his dad and was happy wished that his dad at least spoke to him. Its been almost six seven months since his dad got this busy.
Jimmy grabbed his courage and walked up to his dad and told him "Dad there is a parents meet and the teacher has requested you to come". Jimmy walked out happy because he was singing and wanted his dad to be surprised to see him on stage. They day came and he reminded his dad about the meeting and he was assured that he would be attending the function.
Jimmy could not hold on he ran to the bathroom and cried his heart off as his had not made it. He went home and did not speak a word. They had dinner together and his dad said that he tried his best but could not make it to the function. Jimmy nodded his head and they went to bed. The next few days Jimmy did not meet dad even for dinner because he used to sleep by the time his dad got home.
Next day Jimmy was irritated as Tom was telling him how his dad has taken his picture of the singing and framed it. Tom asked Jimmy what did your dad do with the picture and Jimmy just walked away. Jimmy went home that evening could not hold himself together. He decided that his world is crashing he felt his heart would stop his grief had no limits. He took out a blade and was watching the glittering tip of it. Suddenly he heard a knock at the door, he was surprised to see his dad. His dad was gleaming and hugged him and said "I love you and I think you are the best happening in my life and I'm really proud of you". He then took out a blue badge and pinned it in Jimmy's sweater. He said that his boss had pinned it on him and said that he really admired him for his hard work and make sure that they speed up the process of his promotion and he added " The person I admire the most is you because you have been very responsible and understood me without complaining you're a very strong kid and some day would be a great person I'm sure of that. Jimmy dint know what to do he cried like he never did and so did his dad and Jimmy said I love you dad and I'm not that strong I really did miss you and confessed to him all that he was being through and returned the badge saying I don't deserve it. His dad held his cheeks this is precisely why I feel you deserve it you are much stronger than I thought.
Next day Jimmy was irritated as Tom was telling him how his dad has taken his picture of the singing and framed it. Tom asked Jimmy what did your dad do with the picture and Jimmy just walked away. Jimmy went home that evening could not hold himself together. He decided that his world is crashing he felt his heart would stop his grief had no limits. He took out a blade and was watching the glittering tip of it. Suddenly he heard a knock at the door, he was surprised to see his dad. His dad was gleaming and hugged him and said "I love you and I think you are the best happening in my life and I'm really proud of you". He then took out a blue badge and pinned it in Jimmy's sweater. He said that his boss had pinned it on him and said that he really admired him for his hard work and make sure that they speed up the process of his promotion and he added " The person I admire the most is you because you have been very responsible and understood me without complaining you're a very strong kid and some day would be a great person I'm sure of that. Jimmy dint know what to do he cried like he never did and so did his dad and Jimmy said I love you dad and I'm not that strong I really did miss you and confessed to him all that he was being through and returned the badge saying I don't deserve it. His dad held his cheeks this is precisely why I feel you deserve it you are much stronger than I thought.
We often misjudge and quite often lead lives on the basis of assumptions and end up hurting ourselves more than others. So lets just let go speak it out let down the baggage. It's a short life lets not hurt each other be gentle, be kind and love to the fullest. Desire good for others impart a smile. And remember "sometimes all you need to do is say........"
